tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-78762922012-02-16T07:05:08.911-06:00River's Verbal Bloodletting- a rough journal, questions, quotationsPeonnoreply@blogger.comBlogger441100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7876292.post-11117898343284163622007-04-28T01:35:00.001-05:002007-04-28T01:50:27.740-05:00

MADELEINE PEYROUX - Half the Perfect World15.99THE DAMNWELLS - Air Stereo14.99ANDREW BIRD & THE MYSTERIOUS PRODUCTION OF EGGS15.99DOREEN VIRTUE - Fairies 10110.95CAROLINE MYSS' Essential Guide for Healers29.95DR. JEFFREY THOMPSON - Creative Mind System 2.011.99STEVEN D. LEVITT and STEPHEN J. DUBNER (read by STEPHEN J. DUBNAR) -Freakonomics: The Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of

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I never thought I'd be such a dork. I just bought "Jingo" from audible and I just finished "The Truth." I'm sure if Terry Pratchett has any coolness factor but I doubt it. Satires with happy endings. I like that.

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What is the difference between an emotion and a mood?

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You present a calm, pleasant face to the world. They appear to be tranquil and peaceful to others, with simple desires. In fact, the idealist internally feels his or her life intensely. In the relationships, this causes them to have a very deep capacity for love and caring which is not frequently found at such intensity in the other types. The idealist does not devote their intense feelings

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I don't get it. A person has a potentially fatal illness but the doc isn't willing to try every available option.Aren't they responsible for a suicide by refusing to use a potential medication? If the options are addiction (by using an opiod), a potential hypertensive crisis (by using an MAOI), or a gunshot to the head... wouldn't a doc choose the lesser of evils?Perhaps someone on this site

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In reply to Atypical depression, posted by Ines on March 1, 2007, at 17:03:02 Hello again everyone, I thoughtI'd start a thread on atypical depression. I only recently foud outabout this subtype of depression, and I seem to fit all the criteria,i.e. mood reactivity, oversleeping, overeating, chronic fatigue andrejection sensitivity, early onset. I've also beendx'd as atypical. But I don't over

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I wrote this letter (or a version of it to a number of people. I don't expect it will change anything but I felt compelled.Hi,I can't even recall why people pissed me off so much last year... I stopped writing everyone. Mistake. I can do better. Since you have volunteered in the Mental Health Arena, I can tell you that I'm back on an old fashioned anti-psychotic, stelazine and some others.

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Did I mention that my "letter to the assistant da" got me served a subpoena?

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letter to the assistant district attorneyHello______I believe your are prosecuting ________'s husband. I am rather worried. She would probably tell you these things (and perhaps has) but I think she has has that weird emotional ambivalence and fear of domestic abuse victims.As you know, she has a restraining order. Tonight, she got another disturbing phone call from her husband. Each time she

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Latetly, ______ told me she dreamed of being thirsty and woke up the next day with empty ice trays on the counter, the faucet running. Recenty she has beening finding the clothes she went to sleep in all over the house. She wonders if she has been outside because she will wake with mud on her feet. (And she wonders if she was nude.) Her seven year old daugher states she found her mom in the

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"It is sweet to be foolish on occasion. Woe to the philosopher who can not laugh away their wrinkles. I look upon solemnity as a disease." (Said by Voltaire, 18th centuryJuly 29, 2006

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Dr.life, even without Hezbollah bombs and Israel hunger to smite its enemies, even without GW Caesar the brownshirt Rove placing invisible serial numbers on every computer print out... even without unknowable numbers of water molecules, like riders on minutes specks of carbon pollution, combatting sunlight and sending it back to space like a mirror (http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/sun/ ) keeping us

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meds and heat intolerance and sweating

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Dr. Rick Fitzgibbons, a West Conshohocken psychiatrist and principal contributor to the Catholic Medical Association's book Homosexuality and Hope, identifies the major causes of same-sex attraction disorder (SSAD) in men and women.Weak Masculine/Feminine Identity In his contribution to the book by Father John Harvey, The Truth About Homosexuality, Dr. Fitzgibbons writes: "Weak masculine identity

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Tim,At first I was angry.I "project negativity."I don't like the word "negativity." It is kinda new agey and judgemental.Then I used the visual thesaurus online and came up with:grim, insoluble, gloomy, darkening, discouraging, forlorn, futureless, hopeless, desperate, despairing, heartsick, despondent, dim, black, bleak, pessimistic, resigned, unhopeful, abject, lost, helpless impossible...Most

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Your Five Factor Personality ProfileExtroversion:You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.Conscientiousness:You have low conscientiousness.Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting

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Medication America Posted March 27, 2006 I wrote this in response to a question about Effexor on website psychobabble.( http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20060322/msgs/625396.html )See comment #5. Any comments of your own? Re: amotivational syndrome Five comments (which may or may not apply:) 1) When I first began AD's in the early 1990's, I found them disturbing.

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Anyone live in a pre-fab town/planned community Posted March 12, 200 A developer, David Patzelt/ShodeenDevelopment Corp. has bought a great deal of farm land between my city of Elkhorn Wisconsin and the city of Delavan. The area is an unincorporated town which is also called Delavan. IF the township does not approve the development plan, the developer will approach my city of

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a letter to Paul. Narcolepsy and ghost boys. Posted March 10, 2006 River, I have suffered from this since I was about 4, sleep paralysis, excessive daytime sleepiness, terrible nightmares that continue into my bedroom and I can't move but not narcalepsy. I have just become use to it. Paul.Hi paul, I doubt if it is of any signifigance to you but I have EDS (excessive daytime

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coded for apoptosisMarch 9 2006 I wrote a response to some scientific minded people on a site called Psychobabble. It is is like an online support group for people who take psychiatric meds. I am too lazy to re-write specifically for this blog but you should get the drift. Some bits refer to another writer's letter but some confusion is, probably, inevitable anyway. I may write

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2005 Dec 10hey there:Let's see (and this ain't just another 'moaning myrtle" story:)I didn't feel good Nov, tues the 29th or weds the 30th.Weds nite I awoke my mom and asked her to take me to ER, swabs of throat and nose, chest x-ray and basic blood work shows nothing wrong but 104.7 fever....blah blah blah....Saturday afternoon, I get another IV in ER.The IV was scheduled as an outpatient

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Brian Alex Diane JJ Tim Jessica Luke Nikki Kiersten Ed Bill1am Thurs nearing the end of August, 23, 24, 25, 2005Bedroom: bedI've been reluctant. I had just planned to write "to write." But, it seems, I may, as easily say "to walk." "to garden." "to watch tv." "to speak." "to intrude."Has someone rung a bell, quieting my hand, sending a spell of binding, coating my eyes with cataracts, splitting

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"So I take it that your gay or are you Bi? I have experimented a bit, and found I kind of enjoy it sometimes. I really like [deleted.] Howabout you?" My answer: "Well, at 19, I realized that some people, mostly men, found women sexually enticing. Until then, I assumed it was one of those social lies everyone spouts. An English professor at UW- Eau Claire, who tended to ramble about inappropriate

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I submitted to this to the site above: Are real terrorists going to end the US government's potential for good inside and outside the US and end its "heathen liberal democracy" by making the US strangle itself with its own debts? with its very own "war on terror?"Kind of a flaky site (if hippies had had the 'net) but I thought it was cool.

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I feel light and connected. It is the pleasure of the ordinary, everday agony included...just hi and hello from a man in wisconsin near the the finer trailer parks... currently flabby and fat, a miniature penis and impotent to boot ... have a new tube in my jugular vein that pops out below my collarbone so the nurses can suck my blood (hemochromatosis: click title for info), the surgeon must have

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Hey there,I'm still not sure if I have Asperger's but I think, if what I read in this thread is true, a lot of labels overlap. There is UCLA led group or organization called MATRICS (Measurement and Treatment Research to Improve Cognition in Schizophrenia.) Until now, cognition has been ignored as a problem in shizophrenia (probably because no drug companies have treatments for it.) The work is

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"...I only ask this, when doubt wrinkles your brow, when incomphrension clouds your eyes, when distaste rests like a rank fog on your lips, then think how we few have held our tongues for so long. How we have choked back the truth. How we have burned in our hearts rather than risk the telling. And when you feel most far from me, then at that moment listen hard. Not to your thoughts, which will

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I was asked a question (via email) about the previous quote by krishnamurti:Interesting. How does one determine where one stands of the scale of passion job or otherwise??I answered: Gawd, I don't know. I just know (how?) that there have been times that I've gone along and remembered something from my past and, realized, "where was I then?", what was I thinking or feeling. It is like I had

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“Obviously there must be passion, and the question is how to revive that passion. Do not let us misunderstand each other. I mean passion in every sense, not merely sexual passion, which is a very small thing. And most of us are satisfied with that because every other passion has been destroyed---in the office, in the factory, through following a certain job, routine, learning techniques---so

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http://mygaydar.com/zxbillyboyI write to this guy, Bill, and he expressed a vague turmoil with several of life’s challenges. I replied:Bill,MANY challenges? Crawling out of bed and propping oneself upright until one sits, thrump!, to eat one`s daily bread. Probably doesn`t count as a challenge. : ) I wobbled to the Oriental Theater in Milwaukee and ingested "the sea inside." Quite a good movie

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Morn 100 mg Provigal1 mg Clonazepam8 mg Reminyl7.5 mg Abilify50 mg Desipramine15 mg Dextroamphetamine ER5 mg Dextroamphetamine120 mg 12hour Pseudoephedrine1 mg Deprenyl (3 times weekly)Noon 100 mg Provigal1 mg Clonazepam50 mg Zoloft15 mg Dextroamphetamine ERSupper100 mg Provigal1 mg Clonazepam10 mg Dextroamphetamine8 mg Reminyl50 mg DesipramineMidnight100 mg Provigal1 mg Clonazepam

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Ohhhh... how could anyone tell why or, even, how?

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Recently the Wall Street Journal had an article about the twin deficits in the US economy. One deficit is easy. The budget is way in the hole. The other deficit is more difficult for me to understand. Supposedly, the government or people in the US owe 27% of their financing to foreign investors. This also has something to do with the fact that in 1978, a percentage of people (3 or 13%) had money

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I tend to have "no memory" so I tend to speak about things that just happened... I'm not as bad as the guy from the movie "Memento", I don't tattoo life facts on my body (I wonder if it is possible to forget that it is one's own body?) and I rarely get intellectual (in person, at least.) So I'll just run something by you which probably means little to you but I'm a bit astounded. I work at a

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The path is a cipher of meaning and purpose. One's “path in life” is a convenient way of saying what one's existence is for. It sums up all that we value and aspire to. It sums up all that we value and aspire to...To cultivate a path is to bring its free, purposive, and shared space into being...It is carved from commitment and opened up by letting go. It entails both doing something and allowing

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Oh yea, Josh has a series of videos out from his own company called BlackLatigo. Honestly, I hurt even reading the descriptions...I'm glad he didn't tell me ahead of our meeting. As I said, he was very nice. The dom who beats him is his business partner (set-up by a female to male transexual lawyer.) It is all enthusiastically consentual. Knowing that makes it all the more creepier.

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Hey Joshua, I'm worn out. So, I'm sending you a copy of a note I sent to five friends with the subject: I didn't disappear. {I had told them where I was in case you were a nutjob and that I'd email them when I got home.} "I met, Josh, one of the guys from Alt.com today and I realized I misled him. I sent a note to tomorrow's guy cancelling so I didn't waste his time, too. As I think about it, I

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As I wrote elsewhere: "I've always wanted to become an anthropologist of world religions and business, or an attentive gardener, or a multilingual psychologist to traumatized children around the world, or a go-to man with a sinuous well-proportioned body, cut muscles, martial arts training and the ability to a throw a punch, or a sophisticated but contrary social commentator like Gore Vidal/

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"Michal I'm just at a loss on how to be less alienated and lonely. I've experienced an intimate conversation once in my life for about 2 hours. That was years and years ago. Lately, I've just started telling people I have a mild form of autism/asperger's. It comforts me to think I have a disease but I don't think it is true. I have the capacity for success, I know, but I need to escape this

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Sender: cowboy54 To: River1924 hey! want to talk?? Profile of cowboy54: wanting to have some good clean fun,very open 5:11 180#dk hair, moderatly hairy, enjoy outdoors and good times indoors ---------------------------------------- Sender: River1924 To: cowboy54 ya wanta talk, is it? I see... I'm curious whats on your mind... exactly. river ---------------------------------------- Sender:

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"Every thought, word, deed, every slight interaction---a glance, facial expression, a casual word, a gesture, however trivial seeming---becomes immense, since it will have infinite consequences. " Infinite Life by Robert Thurman, chap 1 I always wonder how the former Tibetan monk and Buddhist scholar (who wrote the above book quoted above) deals with something as mundane as his actress-daughter,

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"The set of all possible relationship stories, all styles of loving that lead to misery, is illimitable. ...When therapy modifies how someone lives a relationship, it corrects whom he may join in love....Knowing that a recurrent partner haunts you doesn't adjust a heart's direction....Those who could love him well are invisible. Even if the clouds parted and a perfectly compassionate lover

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"The genetic code calls some synapses into being, while experience engenders and modifies others. The brain thus takes shape as a compromise between unyielding limits and nearly infinite freedom. It is like a snowflake or a sonnet, whose innumerable members remain bound to an eternal integer." chap 7, A General Theory of Love (T. Lewis, F. Amini, R. Lannon)

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Let's see. 200 mg zoloft 15 mg dextroamphetamine Extended Release (three times a day) 100 mg Wellbutrin SR 5 mg dextroamphetamine (twice a day) 2 mg stelazine 3 mg exelon 4 mg klonopin PILLS PILLS AND MORE PILLS....

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